"Peace, rest, be still." He says it like a command, but with a gentle still voice as He holds me close, my head resting in His hand. I’m safe. I can rest. I let out a sigh of relief. No more striving or worrying, I don’t have to fear, Papa’s got it all under control.
This rest feels so wonderful, one of the most amazing things I’ve ever felt as this strong peace washes over me, encapsulating me, consuming me. It seems so foreign to me now. When was the last time I had true lasting peace? At the same time it feels vaguely familiar like an old friend. I never want to leave this place, not ever again. I’m home, nothing to hide, nothing to fear.
His voice comforts me, washing over me, peace, understanding, and love wrapped in each sound. It’s like music to me, carrying me away to distant, wonderful places, yet not so distant now. I let His words carry me, they remind me of who I am, lift me up, make me strong, He knows me. I forget why I ever doubted, why I ever feared.
I lay back, breathe in, breathe out. I savor each breath, every moment in His arms, I could get lost here forever. Then He looks at me, I know those eyes, such kindness and adoration. He is so confident in me and proud of me. I can tell in the way He looks at me, He does not pity me or look down on me, He sees the greatness in me, He sees how it’ll all work out. Not once has He looked disappointed with me, all I see is love, pure love. I can’t turn away and I just find myself gazing deeper and deeper. I look into His soul as He looks straight into mine. I do not shy away, nor do I hide, I have nothing to fear. I do not need to put up any walls He loves me fully for who I am and nothing I do can ever change that. I welcome His gaze, I trust Him. All I see, all I feel is love, it begins to take me over completely. I never want to leave my lover’s gaze, this is where I belong. He sees me, who I really am, who I was made to be. He sees something in me that I have trouble even seeing in myself. He sees strength, on who never gives up.
My love smiles at me and I can’t help but smile back. He seems so sure, so confident that everything will work out and be amazing, it’s written all over His face. The more I look at Him the more sure I feel. He sees something I don’t and I want to see what He sees.
I choose to trust Him and let Him take care of me as I just rest here in His arms. I will remain here and never leave, this is where I belong. I’m home.